Friday, December 28, 2012

Dear Baby

I'm having a baby.
I'm pregnant.
I'm going to be a mommy.
A mom.


I don't know what kind of mom I will be.
I've dreamed of what kind of mom I will be my whole life.
I hope I can meet those expectations.
my mom is amazing.
she is the best mom there could ever be.
she'll be your grandma.
You're going to just love her and she already loves you a whole bunch.
she is such a loving mom and i know that she will make a perfect grandmother to you.
she had a hard and sad life growing up, but you would never know that about her.
everything about her is selfless, giving, caring, honest...loving. 
i want to be like that for you.

My love for you is already overwhelming.
I can't help but cry while I write this.
Happy tears.
My heart is so full of love and happiness. sometimes I feel like it could burst.
I've dreamed of this my whole life & prayed for you countless times.
& now you are here.  
inside me.
It is so surreal, sometimes I feel like I should pinch myself.
God is good all the time.

your daddy. 

I love him so much.
He is laying right next to me while I write this.
He is the kindest, sweetest, most big hearted man I know.
He is a happy man, always smiling and telling jokes.
God led us to each other.  We were meant to be together.
I know this.
I prayed for your daddy for a long time.
We are one in the same.
He is a better person in the places that I lacking & I am the same for him.
Together we make a perfect pair.
I knew I was going to marry him from the first time I met him.
I hope you always feel the love we have for each other.
I hope we are good role models for you of what true love is.
We will always be together.  We will always love each other & you.
You are an answered prayer
We are so excited to be your parents.
We love talking about you every day and imagining what you will be like.
Who will you look like?
We love seeing you on the ultrasounds.  You are so teeny & spunky.
We can already tell that you are full of life. 
We can't wait to meet you and shower you with lots and lots of love.
We can't wait for you to be a part of our family.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

12 weeks

Time is flyiiiing by!  We decided to keep track of the growing bump with chalkboard updates.  We hope our little one can look back on these one day and see how excited we were to have him or her joining our family. :)

How far along: 12 weeks

Total weight gain: 2 lbs.

Baby is the size of: A plum, about 2" and half an ounce.

What's going on with the babe: Baby's intestines are starting to move into the abdominal cavity, and kidneys will begin excreting urine into the bladder. Eyes have moved from the sides to the front of the head now, and ears are where they should be. Everything is in place, and baby's face is looking unquestionably human. Reflexes are now forming, and if I were to poke my abdomen, the baby would react. Fingers and toes are opening and closing as well.

What's going on with the mama: Feeling great, back pain is finally subsiding :)

Baby is a: Boy or a girl. About 3 more weeks until we find out.  Can't take the suspense!!!

Maternity clothing: Not yet.

Sleep: Pretty good, still trying to get used to getting up 3 times a night to go to the bathroom!

Movement: It's happening, but I've yet to feel it. I think. Hopefully we are close!

Cravings/Aversions: No cravings, no aversions.  Sometimes I can't even tell I am pregnant.

- Still a little fatigued at times.
-lower back pain

The best moment(s) of this past week:
- Hitting the 12 week mark.  Seemed so far away when I first found out I was pregnant.
-Announcing our big secret to people at work and on face book.  Feels so much more official now :)
- Getting to see our little nugget on the ultrasound.  So spunky and dancing all over the place.  It's the best! & look at those little feetsies in the air!

I'm looking forward to:
- Seeing some more homes this weekend.  Hopefully finding ours soon!
- Scheduling a gender ultrasound soon-ish. Not for a few weeks yet,'s getting closer!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Making memories :)

Steve and I decided (well mostly me) to start this blog to document this exciting journey that you only get to experience 1, 2 or 3 times in your life if your lucky.  I have dreamed of being a mommy my entire life.  I have dreamed of what it will be like and how Steve and I will take a million pictures and video tape everything!  We pretty much started being obsessive over that stuff when we met.  I knew from a long time ago that I wanted pictures of my proposal, and videos of my wedding and wedding festivities, videos of our honeymoon, 1 year anniversary and the day we found out we were having a baby.  I always thought how awesome would it be for our children to one day see in the future...all the love mommy and daddy had for each other and how much they wanted them. 

I hope to blog week to week about what is going on and take weekly belly pics to document the growing belly :)  I hope to eventually turn this into a blog that continues to follow our family.  Our everyday adventures full of fun and love.  I hope that eventually I can take all these posts and pictures and have them made into books that we as a family can go back and read. 

We are all about the memories and cheesy-ness people and we LOVE it!


Last Thursday afternoon after a long day of setting up my classroom in preparation for meeting my new kiddo's the following day I found myself exhausted.  I actually had been quite tired the whole week...but that could have just as easily of been from not working for the past 2 1/2 months.  I was just getting ready to take a shower and relax for the evening when I decided...what the heck, let me take a test!  Knowing very well it was still very early.  I took the test..and jumped in the shower.  Halfway through the shower it hit me that I should go check on it and to my surprise there was a very real, very there second pink line!  I had imagined this moment for many many years in my mind.  I just stood there in my towel, shower still running and started bawling my eyes out and thanking God over and over and over!  This was it.  This was what I have been waiting for my whole life. Thank you Jesus <3

After the first initial shock, I jumped back in the shower then got dressed and eagerly awaited Steve to get home from work.  I had always imagined of telling him in some cute creative way.  But, when it actually came down to it....I couldn't hold it in long enough to come up with something.  I screamed his name and as soon as he came in the room I lost it again immediately.  And he knew.  He said he knew the second he saw my face. 

That weekend we were off to Key West with our best friends.  Bring on the water and sprite!  Instant cold turkey my friends.

After the weekend I scheduled my first initial appointment and consultation, where I found out that I was 4 weeks and two days.  Little baby "B"  is due to make his or her arrival on May 1st 2013 :)